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Well this wasn’t what I had in mind

This wasn’t planned and it’s hard to find.

I get lost inside your fears; I turn away like I cannot hear.

Never thought of this for you; never thought this is what you’d go through

The drugs, the pills the sleeplessness, I look at you and see your weaknesses

You keep praying to the stars above, the God you believe and the ones you love

You insist they keep you strong; they move you along and help you carry on

I don’t see it all this way, I try and think about what you say

But all I see is tearing apart; it’s fading now - it’s getting dark.

I’ve fallen into the darkest cloud; I can’t climb off cause I don’t know how

The last thing I want is to see is you suffer - you gave me life – you raised me mother

I may be selfish; I cause my own pain - I cause my own pain - and suffer your strain

It’s hard for me to see you this way - when all I remember is when we played

Together and alone you made me feel; like an only child - your love was real.

Individual, even when I had brothers a sister, your husband and your very own mother

Your eyes are shifting they turn to glass; they look at me then look down fast

I know you don’t want me to see you this way; I know you know - I have nothing to say

This was not how I thought you’d leave; I realize now it’s not time to grieve

Stay strong don’t listen to statistic’s - stay strong I’m hear and ready to listen