R.I.P.

...James Gargiso... guy I Knew From My Childhood Neighborbood Passed at 37. He Was The Neighborhood D.J (when D.Jing was cool) He is (was) the inspiration to my "80's D.J's Playlist" - (on my iPod) Capricorn's " I Need Love" / Shannon's "Let the Music Play / Fun Fun's "Color My Love" - Shocked that his life was cut - this short. IT MAKES YOU QUESTION YOUR OWN MORTALITY. He Suffered an Anurisuim - Not Fair. Wishes, Prayers and Peace Go Out to His Family. I will not only remember him but always know his inspiration to the music I love so much...

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Immortal Mother

Born from your skin - the skin you raised me in

I had to let you go, I had to let your eternal life flow

I had to let you go; my now Immortal Mother.

I stay up late into the night looking for signs, I look for signs your alright;

We talked about you being on the other side,

So I stare into mirrors thinking your life is on the reverse side.

I’ve always heard there’s no loss like Mother;

I thought you and I had this all covered.

Remember, you raised me Mother; alone and separate –

although, you had sons, a daughter and your own Mother.

Now I understand life without Mother,

It’s cold and it hurts and I have urge to hug another ones Mother.

Can’t believe you’ve vanished into thin air;

My conversations with you now seem to go nowhere.

I expect a response but nothing is there - like thin air,

I get angry and feel you don’t care.

My life waits for a visit from Immortal Mother,

Like an open wound that’s left uncovered.

Nothing quite like the loss of Mother,

I’m so angry now because she loved like no other.

Reunion?

So Dee, Here I am making this play list of 80's and 90's Rock Ballads (I have now re-named it "Every Rose Has It's Thorn" - which can also be called "Never Say Goodbye" or even "More Than Words") AND I REALIZE!... OMG! I never responded to Dee's email about a "potential" High School Reunion you are planning and emailed me on...I'm sorry I never responded, I read it at work and buried it in my jelly head. I WOULD ABSOLUTELY love to attend!!!

...With this "Memory Lane" I started walking down all these songs come to mind, all the photos and and and I'm like "what a perfect time to go back...WAY BACK...to when we were young and worthless...

This Evenings Downloads:

"When I'm With You" - Jimmy Haran (with Cynch) - STEVEN stop laughing...

"When I'm With You" - Sheriff

Eighteen to Life" - Skid Row

"I'll Be There For You - Bon Jovi

Remembering The Buick Regal...

Dee, wasn't it called "Vanilla Ice" or something?! ...You named that car...something...

Who Could Resist? One More Blast from Da Past

Imaginary Friend (Umm, I Think)

This is Gus, who is a stuffed animal I've had for umm, about thirty years now. GUS has been with me since I was five (given to me by my Uncle Frankie) ...and I must say Gus, looks pretty damn good for THIRTY! No, his stuffing IS NOT falling out of his ass, he HAS BOTH HIS BUTTON EYES in tack and he is still as lovable and cuddly as when he was first given to me. I don't care, I still love this bear - just look at that teddy bear face it is almost freakishly weird, like Gus is alive! Lately, I have been a little under the weather (a little suicidal - Tee Hee just kidding) and this bear has made me realize that all I need is his love. I'm very serious about this, this thirty year old stuffed animal makes me feel better when life gets to God Damn Rough! (Thumb sucking never hurt either!)